The Maid In The Reverse Harem Game Wants To Quit - Chapter 116
Translator: Nabi
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Chapter 116
So when Edith asked her this question…
“If someone close to you had to die in order for you to achieve what you desire, could you choose that path?”
…She was certain that Irene would give a response similar to her own.
It took a level of courage to say he could do any inhumane thing, so undoubtedly, Irene would choose the path of committing a sin by saying it was inevitable, just like herself.
Perhaps it was an action to rationalize her own sins. Edith, being aware that the path she had walked was inhumane, couldn’t deny the fact. Not only herself but anyone would make a similar choice in such a situation.
It seemed like she wanted to obtain that reassurance.
That was why she deliberately posed that question to Irene, who resembled herself the most when she started her research to save Rodion while secretly hoping for someone to choose the same path as herself.
Regardless, the answer Irenaea gave wasn’t what Edith had wanted, no matter what it was.
“If I had sought to attain peace by sacrificing someone, I would have handed the sword to the First Master without delay.”
There is no point in such peace.
Irene added quietly.
“As much as I love this life, I have no desire to defile it… and I don’t even have the confidence to live a different life.”
She expressed her desire to live this life with dignity. It was because she was tired of hiding behind the name of ‘an extra’ and concealing her fate.
““It is my choice to end it as much as I have loved.”
“…I don’t understand. Elois is erasing the person’s very existence. You won’t remember them, nor will you know of their death… and yet, you lament over such petty guilt?”
“I have lived through the lives of others for so long, so I can’t help it.”
Irene replied with a smile on her face. In her lives she had to spend with her eyes open, there were deaths she tolerated in order to live.
“Not even once. I knew time would go back, and I didn’t think I belonged here, so I repeated… a few times.”
After going through numerous deaths, she finally reached the end of her sixth life.
“I realized that when I saw the people who died at that time. I can’t survive like this.”
Even if she survived, Irene knew that these memories, guilt, and remorse would follow her until the end.
The intuition that she could never be free from their deaths made her cry. She had pushed others to their deaths in order to live, but in the end, she only realized that the life she obtained in that way was incomplete.
“I don’t want to live like that anymore.”
…So, if someone had to die to finish it, then don’t hesitate to call me.
“Didn’t you say that you can tolerate inhumane behavior?”
“I don’t understand why that’s interpreted as meaning killing other people only.”
“What a betrayal to leave a loved one behind and kill yourself.”
Still, Irene laughed, saying that she could be at ease because even if she disappeared, no one would remember.
Her appearance was strikingly similar to Irene, who glanced back at the mansion in Edith’s memories in the past. The face that held a flower basket, saying how happy she was at that moment and wishing that time wouldn’t pass.
Her love was different from Edith’s.
Edith wanted to protect what she loved even if it meant destroying it, while Irene wanted to preserve her love as it was, even if it meant destroying herself.
It couldn’t be boldly declared which side was right, but one thing was certain… Edith could no longer smile in the face of that answer.
It was because the bullet had already been fired.
There was one truth that Irene didn’t know. The center of this world, in other words, the pivot, was human. And Edit, having experienced the errors created by time, had her eyes opened somewhat to this situation as well.
‘Although I knew their true identity early on.’
After learning about the changes that person was going through, she was quite surprised.
Edith’s eyes narrowed as a memory from just two days ago flashed through her mind. The arrival of Ahibalt and the rest of the Lavrenti was already a foregone conclusion through Elois, but someone unexpectedly came to her, which surprised her a little.
“…This is rather new, I didn’t expect you to come looking for me?”
“That’s what I’m going to say..”
The other person replied with a very confused look. The one who came to find Edith was none other than the silver-haired maid.
It was Louise Orpen.
Setting down the lantern with a truly perplexed expression, she drew out a trembling voice.
“I truly, never thought that I would come to find Madam Edith, but…”
“But?”
“I couldn’t think of anyone else I could ask for this favor, except for Madam Edith…”
As she uttered so, her expression revealed doubt about whether her decision to personally seek out Edith was truly the best choice.
Since Louise tended to be overly sensitive about her own safety, it was reasonable for her to be wary of Edith, the attempted murderer. However, the fact that she had come this far was evidence that she had no other way to find answers except to seek out Edith.
In the end, with some distance between them, Louise stammered.
“Ma-Madam Edith said that you know about the strange phenomena I’ve been experiencing.”
“That’s right.”
“And I, I was the protagonist of fate that Madam Edith was researching… that time revolved around me…”
“I don’t want to talk about that anymore, though do you want to hear more of the story?”
“Well, it’s not that I’m asking you to reveal anything. As I mentioned before, I came here with a request. It won’t be a bad story for Madam Edith either.”
“I’m curious to know what benefit I would gain from someone else’s request?”
Despite Edith’s sharp tone, Louise didn’t care.
“Madam Edith, you want to stop the turning time… and for that to happen, one of the two, either Miss Irene or the First Master, must disappear from this world entirely.”
“…Did you overhear it?”
“By accident.”
Even though Edith’s expression narrowed, as if not trusting her words, Louise remained resolute.
“It truly is a coincidence! I came by once before to see you secretly, but since you were talking earlier so, I just happened to overhear.”
Nevertheless, Edith’s suspicion didn’t easily dissipate.
“I find it hard to believe. Why did you come to see me?”
“The phenomenon has recurred, and I wanted to seek advice because I was feeling so confused.”
I was so confused because I couldn’t believe if that was truly my destiny.
In her reappearing visions, Irene was always crying.
…If that was truly her fate, then why was Irene always crying? Because of that, she wondered if Edith knew the answer to this situation. It was with that thought in mind that ended up leading Louise to the truth of this world by coincidence.
“At that time, I simply thought it was an amazing coincidence, but now, looking back, I started to think that it might have been fate.”
The reason was simple.
As she listened to the story, the tangled threads and perplexing phenomena that were entangled within her began to find their place. The tangled threads were unraveled, and the scattered puzzle pieces formed a complete picture.
It meant that this realization was significant—
“I also remember what Irene went through.”
—That Louise has found memories of her past lives.
To be precise, it wasn’t Louise’s own memory.
She gained those memories due to an incident caused by an error created by Irene, who is responsible for the timeline. The reason why Louise regained her memory was an incident caused by an error made by Irene, who was in charge as the time manager.
The memories she acquired also followed Irene’s timeline.
That was why the phenomena she saw consistently revealed Irene… the times Irene had to weep over Louise’s death before finally committing suicide in the end.
As a result, when all the memories returned, Louise couldn’t help but cry. Aside from the tragedy of her own death, she couldn’t fathom the emotions Irene had gone through, having to go through everything.
Irene spoke the same words in every life.
“I hope you find happiness, Louise.”
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Translator’s Note: Hello, it’s Nabi! I’m the translator of this novel ପ( ๑•ᴗ•๑ )ଓ♡ If you like the novel and would like to support me, please feel free to click the button below to go to my kofi~! Thank you so much for always supporting the novels I work on, even if you don’t buy me a coffee, I really do appreciate it a lot. ❤︎
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