The Story Is Not Over Yet - Chapter 171
Translator and Editor: Effe and Nabi
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Chapter 171
Baharf glanced at Azela, who was standing behind Zagnac. Just as he was about to say that the Madam couldn’t go to bed at night without pills and alcohol, he closed his mouth when he saw Azela shaking her head.
“Understood.”
“Baharf.”
In the end, he walked away holding the bottle of wine and medicine that Zagnac gave him in his arms and turned around at his master’s call. Zagnac, who looked as if he would disappear at any moment, stood looking at him.
“Yes, Master.”
“Even if I’m not here, don’t recommend those things. Even if it was secretly obtained, just throw it away without permission.”
“Master…”
Looking at the alcohol and drugs in his arms, Baharf put them down on the hallway floor and turned around before he took a heavy step toward Zagnac.
“Master. Having served the master for a long time, I guessed that you might not be human.”
“…Yes, you’re quick-witted. Is this the age that they have been mentioning? I changed my appearance as if I was getting older, but you still managed to notice it.”
“It’s because I’m past the age of only looking at outside appearances.”
At his master’s words, Baharf laughed as he brushed his gray hair. His smile was tinged with age. How could he get his words out?
Pursing his lips, he loosened his stiff shoulders and spoke again.
“So, I thought I was lucky… I thought that if you weren’t human, at least before I died, I wouldn’t have to go through a separation.”
Baharf let out a sad sigh and looked at the purple eyes of the faded Zagnac yet his master remained unresponsive to his utterances. As Azela battled to brush away her tears, his attention returned to Zagnac.
Seeing that even after the master’s return, her tears showed no sign of abating. It meant one thing… that his master was destined to vanish once more.
“Are you leaving?”
“…Yes.”
“Can I never see you?”
“I guess so.”
“Do you have to go even if we stop you?”
“Yes. It is not my will to leave.”
Zagnac smiled broadly.
As he left, his smile carried an air of nonchalance, rendering Baharf’s countenance impervious to sorrow. He followed his master with a wistful smile before raising his hands.
“Can I hug you?”
“Yes.”
“Yes, master. No matter what the Master says.”
Finishing his words, he took a step closer with his wide open arms and took Zagnac into his arms. Despite the fact that he thought he would feel heaviness, he felt nothing like air, wind, or sunlight. He couldn’t feel anything even when he put strength on his hands.
“To me, Master was my grandson, friend, parent and master.”
“Was? Why the past tense, Baharf? I am always your master.”
Zagnac raised his hand and gently patted his back.
“You’re right… If I had known you would leave so suddenly, I should have hugged you a lot.”
“Let go. I hate such grossness.”
He then smiled and removed Baharf from his arms.
“When I disappear, Azela is your master.”
“I know.”
“I’ll leave mine to you, you can take good care of it.”
“Leave it to me.”
“I am always relieved because you were here.”
With his heartfelt words, Baharf nodded his head with a gentle face as he bowed politely to Zagnac and then turned around. Picking up the bottle of alcohol and medicine he had left on the floor, he walked forward.
Baharf’s shoulders trembled slightly as he walked slowly. It was visible at a glance that he was now crying.
“Really. I make many people cry.”
Zagnac laughed bitterly as he watched his butler walk away from him.
On the other hand, Azela couldn’t find the right words to say and just fell into his arms. She couldn’t tell him not to go or stay with her. It was because she knew that no matter what she said, he couldn’t do that.
“Come to think of it, how did you get there?”
“…Lane came.”
“Oh, there was Lane.”
He nodded as if he had forgotten Lane’s existence for a moment.
That mouthful fellow brought you there.
Zagnac murmured softly and patted Azela, who was in his arms.
In the meanwhile, like she wouldn’t let go of him, who might disappear at any moment, Azela did not let go of him. When he returned to the mansion after a long absence, she clung to his side even as he washed, changed his clothes, and ate.
As night fell, the two lay in bed together.
“…I have been lying here all alone.”
She murmured, placing her hand on his chest.
“Wouldn’t it be nice to use the wide bed alone than to narrowly use it with me?”
“I just wish this big bed would continue to be narrow.”
“Azela.”
“I know… don’t say no. Zagnac, I know, even if you don’t say it. I can just say my wishes.”
“…Yes.”
There was silence for a moment.
Azela placed her hand on Zagnac’s chest and clenched her fist before closing her eyes tightly.
“Zagnac, I’ve been waiting for you to come.”
“….”
“Leaving the window open… with a small wind, I woke up dozens or hundreds of times wondering if you had come.”
“…I see.”
“On days when I fell asleep drunk, I would see and hear hallucinations of you. I met you in my dream when I fell asleep after taking sleeping pills.”
Azela bit her lip hard as her tears ran down Zagnac’s chest.
“You smiled at me and stroked me. But then… when I wake up, you’re always gone…”
“….”
“I can’t stop drinking or taking drugs. It’s the only way I can meet you.”
If Zagnac lowered his gaze, he could see Azela though he didn’t and only swallowed his empty stare into the air. It was because if he met her eyes, they would cry together.
“If you disappear again, I’ll turn into drugs and alcohol… that’s the only way I can let you go.”
“Azela. I don’t want to see you ruined by me.”
“If you don’t want to see me broken.”
Don’t leave me.
She grabbed his collar and buried her face in it. Even though she knew it was something she couldn’t say, Azalea kept saying it over and over again… because all she wanted was Zagnac’s life. Still, she couldn’t say it since she knew that by saying this, she would make everyone sad.
“What shall I do?”
“Azela.”
“Should I smile as I see you disappearing, or should I scream and beg you not to go?”
“….”
“Even though I’ve thought about it hundreds of times, I don’t know. You tell me, Zagnac. What should I do? No matter how much time passed, no matter what I did, I wasn’t ready to let you go.”
“Don’t think about anything.”
Saying so, he raised his hand and patted Azela’s head, who buried her head in his chest. Although she buried her nose in him, she couldn’t feel anything from the faded body scent.
Zagnac let out a deep breath.
“You just don’t have to think about anything—cry when the tears flow and laugh when you want to. It’s natural. So naturally… I’ll be forgotten.”
Will be forgotten.
Azela bit her lip again.
Would she be able to forget? Just the thought of forgetting him made her heart ache like this. Still, she had no choice but to do so because that was the only thing she could do.
“When you wake up, let’s eat together.”
“Yes.”
“After eating, let’s take a walk together.”
“If you want.”
“Let’s wash together, dress together and pat me until I fall asleep.”
“Alright.”
Hugging her waist, Zagnac placed his dry lips on her forehead as Azela quietly closed her eyes. She felt nothing, but somehow, it felt warmth… and even though she didn’t smell anything, she seemed to feel a body scent coming from his chest, where she buried her nose.
Moonlight shined through the tightly closed window into the room.
“Good night, Azela.”
She could sleep tonight. Azela smiled, taking Zagnac’s humming as a lullaby. Because she couldn’t sleep well for a long time, she thought she could sleep soundly through the night today. Just as she shut her eyes at the thought, she linked her fingers with Zagnac.
Even while she was asleep, she wouldn’t let go of him and let him disappear.
And she fell asleep comfortably.
“I’m sorry for making you love me, Azela.”
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aryaanisha1
Gosh my tears its too much to read this