Not Knowing The Betrayal Of That Day - Chapter 128
Translator and Editor: Effe and Yonnee
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Chapter 128
He’s useless.
He should just live like this. He should just die…
Hert, who had been transferring between numerous orphanages, had suddenly arrived at the Fitzgerald Orphanage, which people called his last chance. And it was there that he met a girl.
‘Hi?’
It was an extremely sunny day. The flowers blooming in abundance on the red brick walls of the building glistened in the sunlight, it left an impression on his mind. That’s why Hert thought the girl in front of him was a fantasy.
Standing under the clear blue sky, the girl with long, curly ginger hair instantly reminded him of someone.
‘……’
Fortunately, it didn’t take long for Hert to realize that the girl was not a fantasy but a real person. Even the thought of his mother was just a delusion. Fool. As if there were other things to be confused about. There’s no resemblance at all…
Hert stood up from his crouched position but immediately felt dizzy, stumbling and falling under the rock.
‘Hey… Are you okay? Because of me…’
As he fell to the ground with a loud thud, the girl looked greatly alarmed and hurriedly came over. A face that seemed to be genuinely concerned for him. With a hint of regret.
However, feeling embarrassed for falling in front of the girl, Hert let out a groan of frustration.
‘Go away! Who cares…’
Did I ask for this…? But soon, Hert couldn’t bring himself to say anything and swallow the words down his throat. His vision was slightly blurred with tears. No, it’s not that. It’s because it hurts.
Hert hurriedly checked his body and noticed that his leg was scraped from the fall, causing blood to trickle. However, the wound was only stinging and not particularly painful.
Then what was it? Why did his heart… feel like it’s being pricked?
Despite there being no more physical pain, Hert couldn’t bring himself to get up due to the unfamiliar pain in his chest. It was a strange experience. His body wasn’t moving as he wanted.
He turned his head to look at the girl again.
So, is she the problem after all? But why?
‘Sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you. Will you let me help you?’
Hert couldn’t understand why the girl kept approaching him. It was all the more baffling because most people would have avoided him around this time. Who does she think she is, acting like she can do something…
However, he might have hoped a little. That he wasn’t alone anymore… Because he didn’t want to be alone.
And maybe she sensed Hert’s subtle expectation, the girl smiled wider than anyone else and reached out her hand to him.
‘I’ll lend you my hand.’
.
Ah…
The moment Hert saw the small hand reaching out to him, he felt as if something had struck him in the head. Once again, from the depths of his heart, a different emotion rose up more strongly.
I want to hold that hand.
Even if he would regret it, even if it’s the last time, he wanted to try holding that hand that’s being offered to him.
He wanted to live, like other people…
‘Here, come on.’
After hesitating, Hert eventually took the girl’s outstretched hand. Her hand was small and smooth. And above all, it was warm, enough to instantly melt his frozen heart.
Is this what fate is? He was not sure. But Hert felt that he didn’t want to let go of this girl’s hand if possible.
‘My name is Tessa. You?’
Tessa…
Tessa…
Hert repeated the girl’s name several times in his mouth and finally, as if possessed, said his own name.
‘Hert.’
‘What a nice name!’
The girl, no, Tessa, smiled. Hert felt embarrassed for some reason and instinctively lowered his head. Then, he opened his mouth to say his nickname, which he had never heard since losing his mother.
‘…You can call me Her.’
I’d like it if you called me that.
Then I think I’ll become a special existence to you.
Hert opened his eyes. Tears were gathering at the bridge of his nose, dripping down and dampening the floor. He sat up and leaned against the wooden pillar of the barracks. His body, which had trembled all night, was now starting to calm down to some extent. But his mind remained numb.
Covering his face in his large palm, Hert started to cry quietly. Grief and emptiness seeped into him, like a small moonlight to the barracks. It hurt as if a huge hole had been pierced in the middle of his chest. Aahh. A small cry that sounded like a beast weeping escaped from his mouth.
Hert couldn’t stop the tears from flowing.
Tessa…
Why did you do that to me? How could you…
Hert often denied reality. There’s no way she betrayed him. It was the same when he was dragged into the arena as a gladiator slave, when he fought with a sword between life and death. And even now, when he was thrust onto the battlefield as an arrow fodder.
He didn’t want to believe that Tessa had abandoned him.
If he accepted it, it felt like everything he had would crumble without a trace, so he couldn’t do it. His life was already so ruined but he could still hold onto just a tiny speck of hope and expectation. It was, of course, a lingering feeling, but those things kept Hert alive.
But on days like this, when he met Tessa in his dreams, he wanted to surrender himself to death.
Once he dies, would he be able to forget her?
Would he be able to stop resenting her?
“Tessa, I don’t know…”
You made me live.
You made me… a special existence.
But you, after you made me like this, how could you…
“…I miss you.”
Hert revealed his inner feelings that he had buried deep inside, without realizing it.
Yes, he missed her. The hatred and resentment were strong, but the longing was just as strong. Every moment he spent with her was unforgettable. Tessa was the one who gave him a reason to live, she was everything to Hert.
That’s why he managed to survive. He had to stay alive to meet her again. People had often said that he was lucky to have survived, but in reality, Hert fought harder than anyone to stay alive. He fought to get one step closer to the woman who threw him away.
And when he finally stood before her, he wanted to ask her.
Why did you betray me?
Were you ever sincere to me?
Was I truly nothing to you?
He felt that he could die without regret only if he heard her answer.
Hert once again poured out his tears.
“I… miss you, Tessa. So much…”
What might you be doing right now?
Are you thinking of me…?
“I miss you…”
Another long night was passing by.
“You damn bitch! Let’s see how long you can endure this time!”
Bang! The door slammed shut with a loud noise, followed by the sound of the lock being turned from the outside. After confirming that the small door was firmly locked, Tessa finally got up. When the sound of footsteps completely disappeared, she began to crawl, even as had been lying still as if dead just until now.
“Huuh…”
Today, once again, Tessa had been dragged and beaten from the Young Marquis. It was an inevitable occurrence for Tessa. The Young Marquis, who was not in a good mood during the day, would come and drag Tessa out of her hiding place in the room and beat her.
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