Not Knowing The Betrayal Of That Day - Chapter 118
Translator and Editor: Effe and Yonnee
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Chapter 118
The cardinal’s face was reflected on the polished marble floor. He approached Beatrice, who was standing in front of the statue. She had been looking up at the stone statue all along. God with large wings spread wide had a benevolent face, but at the same time it looked stern.
“Here you are.”
“Do you think that God truly exists?”
“God is all around us in one form or another.”
“Yeah, I knew you would say that.”
Beatrice flicked her fingers, still keeping her gaze fixed on the statue. The man waited in silence for her to speak.
“Why isn’t she waking up? With your divine power, most wounds and illnesses could have been cured. She has been sleeping for too long.”
“As you have said, my divine power can cure most wounds and diseases, but it is not omnipotent after all. There are times when the most important thing cannot be cured.”
“What is that?”
Beatrice turned to the cardinal. He smiled softly as soon as his eyes met hers.
“The heart.”
“The heart?”
“It is entirely up to the person who has that heart to be able to heal the heart. That is why it is the most important and valuable.”
It was also an area of force majeure that no one could invade.
Not even God dared to touch it.
“When I treated her, I could feel a little bit of her feelings. How tired and difficult she must have been alone… Loneliness oozes from her wounds. That must be why she had chosen to die in his stead.”
The cardinal picked up one of the candles that had been lined up under the statue and lit the one that had gone out. Soon, an orange light began to flicker from the lit candle.
“If you don’t want to get out by yourself, you won’t be able to get out. The abyss planted in the heart is so deep… Once you fall in, it’s hard to get out. Its comfort makes people forget everything, and everyone wants to stay there.”
Sometimes, there were people who wished to let go of everything because reality was too much for them. They usually give up, but not because they are sad or tired. It was because they couldn’t bear the empty heart that they couldn’t find a reason to hold on any longer. Their mind has been worn out for so long that they cannot feel emotions.
The feeling of endlessly sinking. Even if they try to do something, the thought that it is nothing and the frustration will soon pull them down.
Of course, they would give up sooner or later, even though they knew that they would have to struggle to get out of it. Such struggles would also feel futile.
The thought of not wanting to sink to the very bottom and do nothing would dominate their mind.
They didn’t want to die. Even dying requires courage, so they just calmly thought that it was okay to die when death comes.
It must have been the same with Tessa, who took an arrow in place of her beloved.
“So you’re saying there’s a chance it won’t happen forever?”
“That, too, is up to her. If she can’t let go of that comfort, she’ll stay there forever. All we can do is wait.”
The man looked up at the statue.
God with a benevolent and stern face.
“Maybe it will be so for a long time.”
“Wake up, Madam.”
Tessa was awakened abruptly by a hand shaking her. Then a familiar face appeared. It was Mani, the lady next door who lived near her house. She was also one of the people who helped Tessa and Hert get a place here. Mani brought a basket full of bread to the awakened Tessa.
“Mani…?”
“Sleep inside, why are you sleeping here? You’ll freeze, child.”
“What? Ah…”
Tessa looked around and realized she had fallen asleep, leaning back in the chair outside her house. When in the world did she fall asleep? She hurriedly got up and tidied up her disheveled clothes.
“I’ve been busy with the store lately… But what did you say earlier?”
“Huh? You’ll freeze here.”
“No, before that. When you woke me up, you said… Madam?”
She remembered Mani calling her Madam. Tessa looked at Mani with a puzzled face. Then Mani gave a light laugh and clapped her hand.
“Oh my, what are you talking about? Did you hear something in your sleep?”
Treating Tessa’s words as a joke, Mani set the basket down at the base of the tree. Steam was rising on the bread, as she had brought it freshly baked.
“It’s strange, I’m sure…”
“Miss is a bit older, so it seems like you want to be called Madam or Missus already? Yes, yes, Missus Shine. Would you like to wake up and have a taste of this?”
Mani took a piece of bread and cut it in half. Then, along with the white steam, a savory scent burst out. Mani held out half of the bread to Tessa. Tessa, casually tearing off a piece of the bread that her Mani had given her and putting it in her mouth, looked back at Mani with widened eyes.
“It’s so delicious!”
“Right? It was made from wheat harvested last year. I also generously added milk and cheese to it. I was excited and baked this and that, and there was a lot left over. It would be nice to share it.”
“As expected, Mani’s cooking skills are amazing. Wouldn’t it be great if I could have at least half of Mani’s skills?”
“What is that, child. Well, I used to work as a kitchen maid for a Marquis’s household. Where will that skill go?”
Seeing Mani burst into a hearty laugh, Tessa laughed too. However, she was in a strange mood somewhere, and she couldn’t laugh more heartily than usual. What? Continuing from before… This feeling of missing something important?
Tessa, trying to shake off the feeling of discomfort, tore off a piece of bread and put it into her mouth. Moderately salty and savory bread gently melted in her mouth, softening her mood for a while.
“Rather than that, what about Sir Shine? He’s not here yet?”
“Oh, he said he’d be a little late because of their monthly meeting today. It’s the social season soon, so the Lady has to leave for the royal capital.”
Tessa led Mani into the house, picking up the basket with the rest of the bread. Since she had received the delicious bread, she intended to treat Mani to a cup of tea and to give the raspberry jam she had made earlier.
“Then Sir Shine is following Lady Janet to the royal capital?”
“…What?”
“Why are you so surprised? Now that he’s been officially inducted as a knight, it’s worth going to the royal capital at least once. He should also have his appointment as a knight properly confirmed.”
“…Yes. I forgot too. Since I haven’t left the estate for the past few years… He said he had a meeting today, so maybe it will be decided soon? More than that, Mani knows better than I do. I didn’t even know that he had to get his knighthood confirmed one more time.”
Tessa, placing the bread basket on the table, opened the cupboard and took out the teacups and answered calmly in passing. Watching Tessa, Mani appropriately pulled the chair and said lightly.
“I have a background in working for the Marquis’s household as I said, so there are many things I have seen and heard over my shoulder. Oh, that reminds me of the old days. A lot of things happened then. Have I told you that?”
“Do you still have more stories to tell?”
Mani would often tell Tessa stories about her time working at the Marquis’s household, if she remembered her old days. Usually, her experiences were far from Tessa, who had never been out of here, so she would listen with interest to Mani’s experiences as a maid.
“Of course, how many years have I been working there? There are so many untold stories, so you can look forward to it. This story…”
“Oh my gosh. So much time has passed. I have to get going.”
Mani got up in surprise when she discovered that the day had gone dark. She cradled the raspberry jam Tessa had given her as a gift and headed for the front door. Tessa naturally followed Mani to see her off.
“Anyway, thank you for the jam. I will enjoy it.”
“I will enjoy the delicious bread. Thank you, Mani.”
“What is that between good neighbors? Then see you later.”
Tessa waved her hand at Mani as she walked away, then closed the door and stepped into her house. As she chatted with Mani, she ate a piece of bread, and even though she hadn’t eaten dinner, she was already full.
‘Hert is a bit late…’
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