I'm A Villainess, Can I Die? - Chapter 103
Translator and Editor: Effe and Tea
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Chapter 103
The meal ended on a heavy note, but tea time after the meal was again conducted in a light atmosphere.
After the utensils were removed and tea and refreshments were served, we decided to keep our mouths shut about the ‘monster.’
Families needed a break. Just a moment to get away from work.
“Let’s have dinner together often from now on. Eating at the dining room every other day. How is everyone? Darling, are you okay with that?”
Everyone nodded along with Mother’s affectionate voice.
To be honest, trying to increase the time we spent together felt like forcing memories with the person that would be leaving, so a corner of my heart felt heavy……. I didn’t show my anger, I just fiddled with my teacup.
The next day, the inside of the mansion was in a commotion. It wasn’t a good atmosphere, but a busy atmosphere because of work.
…… Until now, the mansion was always noisy and in a good mood.
Feeling bitter, I sat on the windowsill and watched the bustle of people and the carriages that continued to arrive.
“Why is it so noisy?”
Jane was checking the medicine she had received from the doctor and stopped her hand for a moment to answer.
“It seems that weapons and other items are arriving today, along with the knights from the imperial family.”
“Really?”
Indeed, as Jane said, several boxes were pouring out of the carriages lined up with hideous-looking weapons.
What?…… Are all the articles meant to go being sent here? Seeing so many weapons and things…… The number of knights must be enormous…… ?
Of course, I knew that the mansion is large and has separate annexes for servants and knights. I think I heard that there are four or five training grounds located next to the spacious maze-like garden.
Still…… Wouldn’t it be a bit tight to accommodate all those who were sent to support?
I tilted my head and thought, then got up.
Well…… To be honest, it wasn’t something I needed to be concerned about. Less than two weeks left before the subjugation would mean that their preparations were already completed.
Confused by the loud noise, I drew the curtains and turned my back.
However, even with the curtains closed, sounds from outside still filtered through.
Listening to the sound behind my back…… Suddenly, I could understand why my family told me the truth yesterday.
If it was this noisy, they wouldn’t have been able to hide it any longer……. So that’s why they talked about it yesterday, the day before weapons and people came in.
Yesterday must have been the Maginot Line.
If it could be delayed, how long would it be delayed?
“My lady, lunch medicine.”
The meaningless question was lost in Jane’s voice.
The pill Jane gave me was square and brown.
Huh, I said I didn’t like green and round things, but why else would the doctor make something weird like this……. I flicked the square-shaped pill here and there and then popped it into my mouth.
UGH. GROSS.
I almost spit it out, but I held it in, trying to conserve some semblance of dignity in front of Jane.
The Doctor is very great. How could he make this other drug? If I gave this to monsters, wouldn’t they all lower their tails and run away?
I swallowed quickly and floundered with my hand to take the juice from Jane.
Aigoo, don’t get sick.
Knock, knock.
In case I interfered with the busy outside situation, I quietly stayed in my room all day.
But when it was time for the evening, someone visited me.
Even though I hadn’t heard it in a long time, I briefly admired the regular knocking sound telling me immediately who it was.
“Come in.”
I knew it. The person who opened the door and appeared was Lucas, as I expected. How long will this sound be familiar?
Will I still get used to it after 10 years?
“You’re not sleeping today.”
“I usually don’t sleep at this time of day.”
It was time for dinner soon. I eat dinner pretty hard, so..…. This was not my bedtime.
“You had been sleeping when you came the other day.”
“Ah.”
The other day? Oh, that day. The days when I was not feeling well and fell asleep on the bed.
Then the day I woke up and changed my clothes.
Heck, that day I skipped dinner and went to sleep. I remember sleeping when Jane woke me for dinner, but I didn’t wake up.
Anyway, it seems that he came to see me that day. Why?
As I tilted my head slightly questioningly, Lucas answered with his eyes wide open.
“I came to tell you that the exact schedule has been set.”
How can he see through my thoughts? The stupid thought of using a method of interest passed through my head for a moment and then disappeared.
The space where the idle thoughts disappeared was soon filled with the memory of my family members discussing the subjugation in the heavy atmosphere over yesterday’s dinner.
“Anyway, yesterday…… I heard about it from my family.”
“Yes. I also heard from Aaron today. I told Selena.”
We were silent for a while. As much as my mouth was bitter, Lucas’ face was also bitter.
“Did he cry while bringing it up in front of you, Selena?”
It was clear that his playful way of speaking was to relieve the heavy atmosphere.
I shrugged my shoulders and answered him calmly.
“I felt there were some tears in his eyes.”
Lucas looked at me with a slightly bewildered face, probably not knowing how to respond to me, and then burst into laughter.
Is this such a fun thing? Well, good is good.
After wiping the dew from the corners of his eyes, Lucas straightened his posture and faced me.
“Don’t worry about the Duke. I will give my life to protect him.”
Maybe it’s because that was the male lead’s line, Lucas looked very trustworthy today. I shook my head and said thank you.
“You, too, be careful.”
With a little worry.
Lucas’ mouth froze at my plea. The stiff face hesitatingly turned toward me, but strangely, it looked uneasy.
“Sir Lucas?”
The precarious face returned to normal only after I called his name.
A natural smile, as if he had never stiffened…… a pretentious, acting smile.
But I tried to ignore it and kept my mouth shut. If he wanted to act, then I should pretend I didn’t see it, too.
After a brief conversation, we had a quick dinner together.
I don’t know why it suddenly happened…… It just happened.
Well, it seems like a lot of things just happen when I’m with Lucas.
Could it be that’s the reason why he came here tonight on purpose? To eat together naturally?
…… no way. He wouldn’t have gone that far for dinner.
I ignored the questions that had crept up.
“Shall we take a short walk?”
After the meal, we had a cup of tea and Lucas invited me to take a walk.
I nodded without hesitation. When I said I would go for a walk without complaining, Lucas seemed surprised.
Why was he surprised?
Honestly, there was a good reason for my actions.
While eating, I continued to think about why Lucas looked so uneasy.
And as a result of worrying over and over again throughout the meal, I came to my own conclusion.
Even if the male protagonist was a knight, he must be afraid of war.
As a person who directly participates in the subjugation, as time goes by, he will be more anxious than I am.
Even if he pretends not to be afraid, it is a battle where he will risk his life, so how can he not be anxious?
Lucas was a close friend of mine.
Frankly, I’m not as concerned about him as Father, but I hope Lucas will be okay, too. He was troublesome, but at the same time he was also a person I was very grateful for.
So, until he went to the subjugation, I wanted to look at everything as I wanted.
In a way, it was pitiful for him to show an uneasy appearance.
“Fortunately, the sun has set.”
I looked around the dark garden.
Until recently, the garden had been noisy, but after the sun went down, it became quiet.
I felt Lucas, walking side by side with me, glance down at me.
“Why, unlike during the day, are there no people?”
I shook my head quietly at the smiley tone.
Well, it was nice to be quiet, but…… That wasn’t the reason I was happy.
“Sir Lucas doesn’t like sunsets.”
Oh, it hardened again.
His face froze again. This time, perhaps it wasn’t just his expression that hardened, but his footsteps as he walked beside me also stopped.
As the footsteps stopped, I also stopped and looked at him.
It was strange.
Even though the sun had set, and it was dark, his purple eyes shone brightly.
Just like a hungry beast.
“Selena.”
My name issued from Lucas’ mouth as he stared at me with a blank face.
“Yes, Sir Lucas.”
It didn’t seem like the call wanted an answer, but I answered anyway. Lucas looked at me, then took two steps back.
One two.
I wondered if I should follow him, but it seemed like he purposely increased the distance, so I stood at that distance and followed him with my eyes.
“Selena.”
Two steps away from him, my name popped up from him again. This time I didn’t answer, just shrugged.
Yes, talk to me. I don’t know what you intend, but I’ll listen to you first.
Lucas looked at Selena standing still before him. Her hair, blowing in the wind, was so beautiful.
Ah, she’s good under a red sunset, so he wished it was a little brighter.
He wanted to see that face in a brighter place.
That white face, those sky-blue eyes.
He wanted to capture the vision more clearly in a brighter place.
So…… he wished he had hurried a bit. Well, he couldn’t help it.
Because he’s always late.
“I like you.”
The words were more crude than ever.
Words that contained all his feelings unadorned with flattery.
That brief confession was both impulsive and planned at the same time.
Lucas wanted to convey his feelings before the subjugation started.
It could be a journey of no return, so he wanted to express his emotions while still alive. Without leaving any regrets.
He did not have the confidence to wield a sword in the midst of war with lingering regrets.
He had no confidence that he would not think of Selena when he suddenly saw the sky while swinging his sword.
Emotions that had deepened so ridiculously would eventually grab his ankle in the midst of the war. The sincerity that was not conveyed will eventually become lingering feelings and make him beg for life.
So, he decided to confess several times.
‘Let’s confess today.
‘Let’s talk today.’
However, conveying emotions was not as easy as he thought.
He was afraid and anxious.
Because it was a confession where he clearly knew what answer would come.
His confession was like a period.
Like a story that doesn’t end without putting a period, it was to put a neat end to this endless greed and emotion……. Yes, that kind of period.
That kind of confession.
In the end, the sincerity that can only be spit out after making preparations to put an end to this feeling.
Because that’s what his confession meant.
Suddenly, he felt like crying.
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